had such a great start to the new year and then just sort of faded away after january. such is my life anymore - great bursts of ambition and energy interspersed with quiet withdrawal from the world. well, maybe not total withdrawal. here's whats been happening:
classes: well. i started my whopping two classes the end of january. i opted out of the glass class - in retrospect this was a mistake and a disappointment. i'm not sure if it was just my frame of mind or what, but i was simply so frustrated with the instructor. carol is an older woman, a very talented artist, genuinely pleasant and easy to get along with, and completely scatterbrained. her lectures would veer off in 20 different directions at once, and her expectations for her beginning students were very unrealistic. i felt very much adrift in her class, and i guess i'm just anal enough about things like that that i didn't want to mess with it, so i dropped it. since then, i've had time to reflect on that decision, and realize that i should have just stuck with it, relaxed about my own expectations, tried to have some fun with it, etc. i felt at the time that she was such a bad instructor, but perhaps not. many of her students return to take more of her classes - that wouldn't be happening if she was really bad.
meanwhile, the class i stuck with, the critical comp class for english, is the one that i should have been more leery of. its an online class, and, after the first two weeks went by without any assignments from the instructor, i should have caught on that something was amiss here. but this has been the case throughout the course - weeks go by with no word from her, and then she'll pop onto the webct site, give us a couple of essays and assignments that will be due within a week. we rush rush rush to get everything done by her due date, and then 3 or 4 more weeks go by before we hear from her again. meanwhile, absolutely zero feedback on the work we've done so far. i have completed every single assignment to the best of my ability, but with no feedback at all, i have no idea what kind of grade i'm headed for, no idea if i should change my approach, or what to improve or how. i do not know if i am doing anything right. as of this writing, there are 3 weeks left of class. in that time, we are supposed to have a research paper to turn in - but she hasn't assigned it yet. also there will be some manner of "debates", again nothing has been said about this other than the promise that it will happen, but on what subject? when? oh and a final exam of course. the last thing we had to do in this class was a midterm exam (3 weeks after the rest of the school did their midterms, btw) the first week of april. silence since then. this was the class i should have dropped, if i had known it was going to be like this.
interestingly, i recently found a neat little thing over at myspace - grade your teacher. if you go on there and type in your school, you can leave a comment about your teacher - problems, compliments, etc. i looked up both these instructors - carol the glass teacher has many little love notes from students who think she's just the bees knees. meanwhile, this english teacher got failing marks, and was noted for just exactly the kind of behavior i've described, as far back as 2 years ago. i really wish i'd seen this before i registered for this class.
anyways, what else? its been a slow winter here - not terribly extreme weather, but chilly-ish. and then early in april, springlike weather complete with 80 degree days began to appear. then it would go away for awhile. we'd be all chilled again, wondering what happened to our early spring. then it warms up again for a day or two. then frost in the morning. at this very moment, it is 65 degrees but with a brisk wind here. the sun is out, everything is pretty beautiful, but i sit here in a sweatshirt, cold down to my toes. i want my hot summer!
hmmm, we've been having some fun - i took wayne to see the moody blues in san francisco for his birthday in march. its the second time i've taken him to see them (come to think of it, the time before it was also for his birthday, last year), they are one of his favorite bands, and, though they aren't my favorite, they do put on an entertaining show. i don't really mind seeing them, especially since he doesn't kick up too much fuss when i drag him out to see bands that i like. for instance, we saw the black keys in early april, they were awesome! even though i think he really hated the opening band (jay reatard - pretty punk garage rock, way way WAY too loud, but i was ok with it). we have tickets to see REM, along with the national and modest mouse, at the end of may in berkeley. and even more exciting - we plan to fly down to los angeles late august for a nice 3 day weekend away, and i have tickets for radiohead at the hollywood bowl. theres lots of good shows coming up here and there in between now and fall, too. lots of fun stuff to do and see this summer.
anything else? OH! i went blonde! bwahahaha! i just wanted to do something different, something fun, and jill did a great job making me a blondie. i'm just now finally starting to get used to it. at first it was a big shock every time i'd catch sight of myself in a mirror or a reflection in a window or something. this is what it looks like:
summer fun, i want some!